well, it’s been SUCH a hard couple of weeks for me - this weekend being the worst. i’ll spare the details because i’d rather not relive by writing it now but I am feeling depressed and unloved - i need some serious huggage. 
my relationship w/ dennis has never been more challenged than it has been these last couple weeks.. it’s was ok, then bad, then downright spectacular, then real bad again, and as of this morning a bit better with some renewed hope but quarded expectations on my part at least. all of us in sa know how hard it is to fix the symptoms of a problem when the root of it eludes us. Given the amount of changes and new challenges we’ve been faced with this past month it’s expected to have a couple conflicts and tensions but the level of stress on me has been more than anyone should deserve. any more and it would be the one that did me in.
I’ll leave it at that in all it’s vague glory. :)
Hey sis, not that LJ isn’t wonderfully addicting and semi-therapeutic but…I hope you know you can always call me and talk whenever you want. BTW, I love your house it’s awesome. I hope you didn’t get offended by the comment I made when we left: “I’ll be back when the house is fixed up” or something like that. It came out the wrong way. What I really meant was..”by the time I come back I’m sure the house will be the way you want it” such as unpacked. Anyway, I love you.
Reply to grocerynipplesrelationships aren’t always picture perfect. you two will be fine, its just alot going on right now. you’ve made a lot of changes recently, they need to sync in. give it time and be patient, you’ll see. you two are meant for each other. “this too shall pass”
Reply to lizzieandjennihey, i don’t get offended that easy.. the house needs a lot of fixing up and i’ll be the first to say it needs serious work but i know it will happen with the right time and money. can’t rush it all tho cuz the money isn’t all there, ya know?
anyway, i don’t normally talk about any problems i have w/ dennis because i feel that’s private — for the most part. i just wanted to vent a little this way in a real vague way and maybe get a little vague support. things are way better today but that’s the thing with relationships. this one is a slower roller coaster fide than my last (thank god) but they’re all kindof like roller coasters. we just on our way up from a very low dip … (what an analogy sheesh)
ok, so i’m at work — got tons to do. ciao.
Reply to Tania (digsite)heheh that saying reminds me of that movie “glass house” or something.
yeah, i know you’re right.. and sometimes you need to shake up your dirty rugs if you want them to shape up. so we did some shaking yesterday. I have some issues i need to work thru tho - just realized that today too.
drat! and i thought i was perfect.
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