I’m finally able to update LJ! .. i just replied to the replies of my last entry from the 28th too. Dennis is such a laptop hogger, i swear! and i hate asking him to let me use it - even tho it’s mine! and i refuse to use my computer in the garage. MUCH too hot in there for me right now.
anyways, i’ve been up all night. I don’t have a real sleep schedule anymore i just catch some z’s here and there whenever i feel i need it. Jada eats around the clock so I can’t sleep longer than 3 hours at a time anyway. 
I have been recovering well. I used to have to take 2 percocet every 4 hours for the pain, now i’m down to only 4 pills a day total. that’s pretty good. The baby is doing well too. She had lost 9 ounces on the first day, 4 on the second and a couple more after that totalling a whole pound of lost weight which is not all that unusual but it shocked the nurses that it happened so quickly. so they made me feed her every 2-3 hours even tho she was sleeping which was hard. i’m breastfeeding her so needless to say… the pain… the PAIN! nuff said. Plus all i had to offer was colostrum which is very nutritious but apparently not enough to maintain more of her weight. my milk had not come in until about the 4th day. But on that day, even tho at the weigh-in she was still one pound down, the pediatrician said to feed only on demand and try to stretch feedings as much as possible during the night to help her learn to sleep thru the night. Well, i’m taking half of his advice and feeding only on demand but there is NO way this little girl will let me get away w/ not feeding her immediately after waking up even at night.
she goes anywhere from 1 to 6 hours between feedings. it’s all up to her.
she got her first ’sponge’ bath today. :) she was ok w/ some parts but hated others. like her hair. he cried so hard her face turned blood red…. poor girl. but she just loved getting her back rubbed. LOL!
this mother thing is great but i have the “baby blues” .. i must have cried total of 3 hours today for no “good” reason. just a general feeling of hopelessness and feeling alone. can’t seem to see the bright side of anything, except for my daughter. i love this little girl soooo much. being a mom is still rewarding despite this depression but I hope i get over it soon so i can fully enjoy this time.
OMG your daughters pictures are sooo adorable! :)
i am glad you are recovering ok and i can’t wait to see more pictures later :) Hope you know that everyone misses you but is so happy that you are getting to spend some time with jada! :)
hehe ok, enough i am about to start crying :>
Reply to whisperkittyI’m sorry about the depression thing. It will get better soon..:)
Reply to grocerynipplesThe blues will pass, hope it’s sooner rather than later.
Several years ago, when mine were born, a friend told me to be aware of experts who advise me something that is in conflict with what my instincts tell me. She said that while kids are still babies, the same instincts that applied throughout our species’ history still apply, and that many experts are frankly wrong about certain things. She advised me to take and use what pieces of advice seemed right, and discard the ones that went against my instinct.
And I found that, in my case, she was absolutely right. Every time I tried something that went against what I felt was right, we all suffered, and I’d wind up knocking it off. Then we’d be just fine.
Reply to springdewthanks jessica. nice to know i’m missed.. but i don’t miss work! lol. it’s nice to have a break from that too. even tho taking care of her is hard, it’s still like a vacation from work.
Reply to Tania (digsite)some days are better than others. last night was shit, today has been good. tomorrow? who knows. i think it will pass completely tho.
Reply to Tania (digsite)yeah i’ve been given so much advice so many of them direct opposite of another it’s crazy. so, we just use our common sense and do what seems right.
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this mother thing is great but i have the “baby blues” .. i must have cried total of 3 hours today for no “good” reason. just a general feeling of hopelessness and feeling alone. can’t seem to see the bright side of anything, except for my daughter.
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Sleep whenever you can, not just when you need it. Get help wherever you can- this includes from SO. Don’t do it all yourself, because you can’t right now. If you can; have someone come over daily to watch baby girl while you take a needed nap. A few z’s don’t cut it. I speak from experience.
And; while I’m not comfortable with this, esp with a newborn; I had a friend who had the baby sleep in the bed with her. Baby slept thru the nite from day 1. My own son started sleeping thru the nite after we let him sleep with us. It was heaven, after a year of no sleep…but while the baby got up twice a nite; I got the first feeding; SO got the second, since he had to be up earlier anyway.
Congratulations on the baby.
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