i haven’t had tons and tons of relationships so i’m not an authority on the subject, i don’t think anyway. i’ve had a couple mediocre passionless ones, a couple rediculous ones where i think back and can’t think of anything other to say but ” what the FUCK was i thinking”, one really really really really REALLY REALLY long and bad one, and then one really good one with substance the stuff that lasting marriages are made of so i went ahead and married him. heh and i hope to think i can identify a real loser relationship when i see one.
anyway, where am i going with this? … um.. i have no fucking idea.
we went to bb’sRus yesterday at 1pm to get baby pics at their kiddie kandids studio. Jada just cried and cried. my god it was soooo hard to get a halfway descent shot of her! the first one was nice, the rest just sucked. Part of the problem was the heat in that place. jada just doesn’t like being hot she sweats like a pig (she’s like her dad in that respect) heehee. we had to leave at 3 even tho we weren’t done cuz dennis had to go to work.
today i went alone, they got about 2 good shots (the rest sucked once again) and then she really needed a break cuz she was too sleepy and cranky. I walked around the store while she slept, when she woke up i had to feed her then back we went to try some more. we got about 2 shots and that was it, she was crying and crying again. i threw in the towel and decided to buy from the ones they’d shot but then their photo printer broke down. what a drag. i left there at 5pm. i had spent a whole 5 hours in that place! now i’ve got to go back tomorrow. i figure if jada’s in a halfway ok mood and it’s not too busy, i’ll have them try the last shot again. (there are 4 poses total they will do… 3 down..)
it wasn’t all a waste tho.. i bumped into 2 lamaze class alumni who were there with their babies :) and talked about baby stuff and labor stuff and breastfeeding stuff. they go there for a class every thursday from noon to 1pm and said i should come next week. i’m going but too bad next week will be the only time i can go since i’ll be back to work after that 
bumped into another lady in the “mother’s room” and chatted for about an hour about baby crap and her radical episiotemy. eeeewwwwwww!!!!
aaaaanywaaaayy… d’s mom is coming down on saturday to spend the weekend. that will be nice. after feeling so repelled by visitors right after having the baby, it’s a nice switch to feeling glad to have company. I was right when i thought i couldn’t handle visitors in the beginning. i should have listened to my gutt. …next time i will… 
i’ve lost 27 lbs already but have been stuck at 165 for a few weeks now so it’s not going to come off so easy. It’s funny.. I feel comfortable at this weight, but when i look in the mirror i have this reaction like what i see and what i feel don’t match up. i look heavier than i feel.. my joints don’t like the extra weight tho. either that or they’re still suffering from lingering pregnancy hormones. going back to work will help curb my eating habits. i eat like a porkhog! (hmm… new word)
dennis is a saint when it comes to my weight tho. he never has anything negative to say about it. when we met i was at 140, when we got engaged i was at 155, at the end of my pregnancy i was 192. heehee! and he loved every pound of it. I, on the other hand, am not so forgiving. i’ve never been attracted to overweight men, even tho i’ve dated some chunky folk :) and dennis has put on some sympathy weight. quitting smoking 4 separate times hasn’t helped either. he’s at a good weight but maybe 10 lbs over he’s beginning to look fluffy. buuut i still love the guy. icecream addict!
i shaved tela again 3 days ago and .. heh… it’s bad. she got in a fight w/ scully and got bitten pretty good on her backside and i shave a LOT closer back there than the rest of her body. it’s really uneven and makes poor dog look like she’s got mange. LOL!
our yard is big and fuckn filled with trees and bushes and shit. we have 2 orange trees, 2 grapefruit trees, 1 tangerine tree, 1 lemon tree, 1 HUGE starfruit tree, 1 REALLY HUGE fruitless tree and just tons and tons and tons of small palms, flowering bushes and some “useless” bushes that overgrow just waaay too fast for my taste. it’s like a freaken jungle out there. I went apeshit on these 2 ‘useless’ bushes that overgrew so much you can’t even walk out there. after i hacked them to bits, i uprooted one of them with my bare hands.
but HR seems to have made a mistake and they have me coming back on the 9th instead of the 2nd. i could still come back on the 2nd if i wanted but do i want to? i haven’t gotten a paycheck in weeks and that sux but what’s one more week?
i’m ready to come back, but once i do i wonder if i would wish i had taken that last week. hmmmm…. decisions decisions
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