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.. you just wish you could turn back time and do something to change it.

My cousin’s girlfriend lost thier baby today. They all live in the same house as my grandmother and aunt so I got to see them every time i went down to miami. I watched her belly grow, watched their excitment, watched them watch jada in awe like i watched other babies in awe when i was pregnant in wonderment and not believing that I was about to have “one of those” too.

She was due in 4 days. If only… If only .. i’m sure they’re asking themselves that same question.. If only she had gone to the hospital sooner. If only she had decided to have a csection and get the baby out a little early like the doc said she had the option to.

I talked to my cousin earlier tonight and he could barely talk.. he was just so devastated… I didn’t know what to say.

I can’t stop looking at jada and just being glad that she’s here with us and wonder what i would do if something bad were to happen to her. Babies shouldn’t be allowed to die.