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Dreams like this one really disturb me more than my satanic nightmares (which i haven’t had one of those for a while now)…

Dennis and I are together, married, etc, and working in a department store someplace. I think it was burdines. We are employees there and work the same shift.

I have some sinking feeling that things are not right with him and he says to me.
“lets go out into the stairwell and talk”.

We go out there and it’s the same stairwell from my elementary school in new york (Our Lady of Sorrows). We’re in there and he says to me “I’m thinking of taking a different job in Sears.”

I’m shocked. I didn’t see this coming AT ALL and I say to him. “what? why?! what about this job… and what about me?!”

he says “I’m not sure about you anymore, i found a better job.”

Now I’m getting more upset..
ME: “you found a better job?? Have you found someone better than me?”
HIM: no answer
ME: “have you found someone better than me?”
HIM: ” i think so, yes.”

I can’t beleive my ears and i’m beginning to feel more and more depressed at this point and my eyes are watering up.. I decided to ask him a very direct question.

ME: “So. Are you saying that you are done with me?
HIM: “Yes, i’m done with you. ”

I take a step back and realize that this is it. This is the end .. but then for a second i deny what i’m hearing.. (.oO he doesn’t really mean it)

ME: “You are telling me that you are COMPLETELY done with me?”
HIM: “yes, i’m completely done with you”

.. as if that wasn’t clear enough…
ME: “So you don’t want me anymore? at all?”
HIM: “No, I don’t want you anymore. Not at all.”

well, right after this I am aware that it’s a dream but i’m still asleep. I decided then that once I woke up, I’d have to wake him up and ask him for real if he meant this..

After getting up this morning, I looked at him and decided… “nope, he wasn’t really in the dream so it would be silly to wake him up.” LOL, then i got ready for work and left.

But I’m still going to tell him about it and ask him if he’s really done with me when i get home!!! lol!!