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aaaand. I had another odd dream last night.
This dream was weird as hell..

I’ve been cast in a new reality show similar to Big Brother or the Real World. We’ve all met eachother for the first time in a structure with many rooms. The exterior of it is all concrete and hard but has a soft beige color. There are a lot of right angles and sharp corners to the structure which was 2 floors high and wide and deep.

The structure is big and sturdy but it’s in the middle of nowhere, in the wilderness and the first challenge of the reality show is going to be to rough it in the outdoors.

We are all gathered around a very long table for a feast and for getting to know everyone. There is tons of food on it and it’s all very formal The table is a dark shiny wood but it’s on a pavement that is more outdoors than in. It’s nightime and very dark beyond the house. There is a man siting 2 seats down from me and our eyes meet. It’s an immediate feeling of attraction and it runs deep for both of us. He moves to the seat next to me and ee talk. We get to know eachother and we know that we are in love now. If I thought I loved him, he loved me even more.

I can’t remember with great detail but even though we are on the first night of the show we live a long while getting to know eachother but still not able to REALLY be together alone. There is no privacy because there are people and cameras everywhere. This man’s face is crystal clear and he looks similar to someone at work who i’ve seen walking around the hallways and chatted with couple times.. I think he’s in customer care or something .. but not quite the same.. just has an air of similarity and irl, i’m not attracted to this person at all, but there it is… I’m in love, deeply in love.. and this feeling is inescapable in the dream..

Sometime later I feel that I need to go pee and I’m trying to find a bathroom.. everywhere I look there is no good place, no working bathroom or no privacy to go. Now I’m in a part of the house that is waaay in the back of the structure and the walls and floors are concrete and unfinished.. no carpetting, no paint, just cold and rough. I’m still looking for a bathroom and every room i go into is empty and has no toilet. I go into one bedroom and it’s gabe’s daughter’s bedroom. the one next to that is gabe’s son’s bedroom. On the bed of his daughter’s bedroom is Monica and she was folding clothes or something. His daughter is playing somewhere in the room.. monica says “you’re looking for a bathroom? Gabe will show you where it is”..

so next thing i know gabe is walking with me along the outside walls of the structure.. on the left side, a few yards away from the dinner table and everyone else who’s having dinner. He’s trying to find a bathroom for me and i’m walking with him.. He can’t find shit. I have to go pee!! We arrive to an area outdoors just at the edge of wilderness and it’s lit by the lights coming from the house. I look at the ground and I see the dark soil and some vegitation growning there.. Beyond that point it is pure darkness and so we don’t go any further. I say to gabe “I can’t see a thing, how am i supposed to go to the bathroom?”
We start walking back towards the dinner table and the others I remember that i’m in love and i have to get back to that man that loves me back so soo much (sappy i know but it was a dream what can i say)

Gabe and I walk up some steps, all outdoors, and this is where that feeling hits me that i have to get back.. that i’m not doing something i should be doing.. I need to be back there or i’ll get into trouble.. i dunno .. it was foggy

and that’s where the dream ends. I think it was interrupted when dennis tried to be slip into bed unnoticed.. he was anything but quiet.
I tried my damnest to get back into it all dawn but he kept snoring or jumping around in his sleep or breathing really loud.

It was fruitless. but i realized the part about finding a bathroom was because I REALLY DID HAVE TO GO. lol.