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why do i have so much great luck with the smurf superior mandude, eh?  so i  tell the fucker LAST WEEK that we’d be working something out SOMETIME THIS WEEK so that i can start coming to our weekly meetings again and today at 3, i’m packing up to leave and he says.  ‘you coming to the meeting?”  uh,  NO!    we’re not ready to do the parkinglot baby swap thing just yet.    like i said SOMETIME THIS WEEK.  that is the reply you didn’t say a word about?  the email you didn’t reply to to say something like “well make sure whatever it is is done by wednesday cuz you gotta go to this meeting:”..    WTF am i missing anyway,huh?  more managerial double tallk?  no thank you, midget man, Like i said, sometime this week we will be ready to do the parking lot baby swap.    Like when we get another carseat which up until FRIDAY we won’t have. 

idiot!

this is like my baby book so i gotta write it down before i forget….

Jada took her first steps on monday. Can you believe it! I certainly can’t . We were at my gmother’s place and she crawled over to the dresser, stood up, then walked over to the bed. 2 steps without holding on to anything. yay!! and she did it twice! sooo awesome that dennis and i were both there staring at her when she did it. and so was my father, stepmother and gmother too..

woo!

man, I think it’s going to take a whole week to get things back to normal around the house. We didn’t have a whole lot of time to finish cleaning up yesterday either. We got up (late), went straight to my grandmother’s house for a few hours. then back, watched a movie and a half, and then to bed.
We have sooo much leftover food in our fridge it ain’t funny. I’m going to freeze half of it and live off the rest i guess. dunno cuz i was planning on doing the fruit only diet for a while right now. I guess throwing away the food or letting it spoil isn’t going to “waste” money since the money has already been spent but I just hate the thought of tossing perfectly good food.

Anyway, in other non-party news….
I have an aunt (nena) who tends to be really blunt. I find it funny most of the time but it pissed me off a little yesterday. So first, at the party when she was leaving, she gave me a big hug and said into my ear “don’t let yourself go. lose weight, ok?” HUH!?? typical for her, but still… it caught me off guard at that moment. sure i’ve gained weight since having jada but that’s *my* business, not hers. I did find it funny so .. I let it go. Yesterday, we go to miami and I’m sitting on the couch and she comes over, sits next to me and says ” so have you decided to have that hair procedure done?” i’m like “what procedure?” and she says. “the one I told you about that costs 600 bucks”.. jesus fucken christ!! do i look rich to her? I said ” hell no I’m not having that done” and she says “well you at least have to relax it cuz you can’t have it looking like that all your life” I answered ” I already do about every 5, 6 months. She goes “OK”. ok, so my hair is a mess most of the time … again, that’s *my* business, not hers. I just really don’t give a shit about how I look most of the time. That’s just who I am.

On the one hand, this is sortof typical behaviour for people in my family but on the other I want to say “FUCK YOU!! YOU’RE FATTER THAN I AM ANYWAY, YOU DRESS LIKE SHIT TOO AND YOU’RE FLATULENT AND HAVE NO MANNERS!!! SO THERE!”

bitch.

whelp, the birthday party was a success and thank god that’s over.    If it wasn’t for my ex-stepmother and my current stepmother cooking all the food, we would have been up the creek.      Dennis and I cooked the meat on the grill…    and did normal host stuffs but that was it.  It was basically over before I realized it.

Jada is one year old and it seems so unreal.  This first year just flew by.  She got to dig into her own little personal cake.  Photos to follow this week hopefully. 

I’m beat.. so so tired.    I cleaned a lot up this morning but spent the majority of the day with dennis’ sister and her boyfriend.  They just left here a while ago.  Thank god I don’t have to work tomorrow cuz i’m feeling like i’m gonna get a cold or something. 

anyways.  that be it.

I just skimmed over my friends’ posts. Love the pics, xenia! I gotta call you this weekend!

well, I’ve been on a health food kick of late. trying to fix things that have been wrong with my health since I was a kid. now I’m taking echinacea liquid form in the evenings in my water (should do this in the mornings acutally), high fiber foods, fruits, cutting out diary products, cutting out deep fried stuff. reading a lot of info online on organic products, herbs, and different kinds of cleanses. I’ve been learning a lot and looking forward to a healthier me in the future. i think the fresh food market on glades will be my next home away from home. lol! I’ve only been working at it for a couple weeks so I haven’t gotten anywhere yet. positive thoughts! positive thoughts! now i’m reminded all the time by an old coworder and her health food kick she was on way back when.

Jada will be turning one in exactly one week. Wow, where has the time gone? I look at old newborn pics and how big she is now and I’m just amazed both by how much she’s grown, and how little I still think she still is. well, she is little but not compared to one year ago!

anyway, I just ordered her gifts from me. a bunch of children’s books in spanish. I think it’s time to get more serious about teaching her spanish and talking to her in spanish. if I don’t, I think she’s be mad at me when she’s older that I didn’t. She’s got 3 teeth now and one more on the way, her hair has gotten curly too. used to be straight all the time with rare curly days. now it’s curly all the time with rare straight days. has everything to do with humidity levels. I wonder what it will be like in the winter.

ever have those days where you really really really really don’t want to be at work? anything that could go wrong has been. i’m mentally not up for being here, I’m feeling so cranky and annoyed by everyone and everything, and physically my stomach has not been very happy at all. I feel like I need a mini vacation from my own mind.