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today was touchy feely kissy lovers day.. D and i exchanged cards and gifts. I gave him a john grisham suspense novel (i hope he enjoys it) and he gave me an indoor lilly plant thingamabob similar to what xenia got me for xmas. It’s really cool to see those things grow and i’ve been into those things ever since she got me that one. :) Next ‘holiday’…. my birthday. :) all I want for my birthday is to get my ipaq back. we shipped it off to the warranty repair people today and I really hope it doesn’t take 6+ weeks to get it back. well.. actually i would reaheheheeelly like a night out alone with my man (u hear that D?) that’s really all I want. … oh alright, and maybe a sappy card.. *sigh* ok, and a box of godiva chocolates too.. (never a bad time for chocolate!) well, really that’s all i want.

can’t believe i’m sleepless again tonight. After watching far too many episodes of battlestar galactica, I waaas going to bed but decided to quick check my email first. what a travesty.. that we have such technically skilled folks by our side yet they possess the ‘real life’ interpersonal communication skills of a sheep dog. .

anyway… i’m not sure why i can’t sleep these days. could the family drama be the only cause if it? I’m beginning to have doubts…. some odd things have been happening. some i won’t mention here but the other spooky thing is that the dogs been acting weird. Its like they don’t wanna be in the house. they wouldn’t come in this morning so i had to leave them out there when i left for work, then D said they wouldn’t come outta the bedroom all day. weird. I joked with D about what 2 possible things it could be. option A is a very bad thing, option B is a very scary thing. lol.. i think i rather it be the every vague and mysterious option B. hehehehe.. well there’s always option C. and that’s they just wanna be spared jada’s rough affection for a bit.

oh god today is gonna be “one of those” days.. I guess not sleeping enough has something to do with my mood. I got up and showered right away, but i still feel dirty for some reason. I washed my hair yesterday but it feels like i haven’t washed it in a week. All in my head.. I just feel grimy, dirty… lovely. Been dreading work tomorrow for some reason. I’ve made myself go to work when i’ve felt this way before and it’s always a negative for me. i regret going .. I just don’t want to leave the house. ugh..

I sent D out to get me ingredients to a recipe I want to try today. If I hadn’t decided yesterday to do it, I wouldn’t bother but I want to get SOMETHING done at least or my mood will get worse. I have a load in the wash, changed J’s clothes, but something about the state of the house is bothering me. I have paper clutter all over again and the floor is dirty. those things aren’t helping my mood. I’ve always been very visual. chaos in my house translates to chaos in my frame of mind… but thing is the house isn’t all that chaotic this time. Maybe if I just threw all the paper clutter into a box where I didn’t have to look at it….

sigh…