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what a pain in my royal ass.. I mean, I have days where I just feel bad (about myself) and others where i feel alright or good even (my ‘good’ days are not as common, i’m afraid) but this week something happens every day to pull me down. I know, i know.. it’s all about ME and how I choose to deal with whatever happens to me. I don’t want to write too much about it right now. maybe later….

anyways, I had this really strange dream last night. VERY weird. i’m mean like, REEEHEEHEEEALLY odd. involving someone who works in the same building in a very intimate capacity. In my dream I was like “ok… so why am I with this person? if I should be feeling something, but i’m not… then why am i with this person?” LOL!

then it evolved into my going to this person’s ex-house and finding weapons and a dead body. and My trying my damdest to remove all evidence that I was even there.

I’m still debating if I should write this one in my journal. If i do, I’ll have to replace real names for fake, and so on… LOL!