Monthly Archive for August, 2005

bleh

It’s “monday” again but this work week started out a bit smoother than my work days last week. Last week just sucked major ass. Even tho I left early thursday and never returned to work because of Katrina and the daycare being closed. Jada still managed to ruin those days off. Crying CRYING for anything and EVERYTHING. WHAT a SHITTY few days that was. OMG. And she’s probably not over it either. She threw a small fit as we entered the daycare this morning throwing her body on the ground in front of the front door and refusing to stand up. Mind you, i’m carrying her lunch bag, a couple dozen diapers in a bag too so my hands are full. She was striking against daycares i guess. But after i made her get up and took her to her class, she was OK as long as she didn’t notice i was leaving. But I had to stay there for a good 40 minutes cuz the caregiver ladies were late. great.

She developed one of the WORST diaper rashes she’s had last week because they weren’t changing her diaper often enough. In fact the 2 days i picked her up from daycare her diaper was soaked so much that her shorts were wet. her inner thighs which ended up making contact with the over filled diaper became sore with urin burns. WTF, PEOPLE!! Don’t these people know better?!!?!?!

I told the woman who finally showed up there this morning but she told me she isn’t normally in that class but she will pass it on to the other girls. I’ll make sure to tell those girls myself , however, when i see them.

It took days and the rash is under control, but still not gone. It was THAT bad. I even got anti fungal cream from the pediatrician just in case it had developed into a yeast.

In other news, Dennis is finally back from his week long trip to sterling. He had fun sightseeing DC and meeting up with his old TS bud. I’m sure he had a good time (while I had a shitty time) but i’m overjoyed that he’s back and able to take alleviate parenthood. MAN! being a single parent SUX! I wouldn’t wanna do that full time.

mother’s guilt

One of the things they never tell you about before you have a kid is how GUILTY you feel for not going that extra mile and for not being the PERFECT parent… for cutting corners and for being selfish too.

I didn’t pack J’s lunch today so I ordered a lunch with the daycare (turkey sammich with chips and fruit.) better than I would do for a lunch anyway but i still felt bad for it. she’d probably just gutt the sandwich and leave all the bread behind but still.. i had mother’s remorse all day long. :(

And I was worried so I went over there just now to peek in on her. She was OK i guess. It was nap time so she was on her mat, on her back, thumb in mouth but twirling herself clockwise on the mat. she just can’t stay still anywhere. I was still happy and impressed she was on that mat and sucking her thumb. (she only does the thumb when it’s sleep time.

siiiiigh

I dunno what it is but i miss her. i ffeel like i abandoned her today. LOL! wtf?

It never felt so good being kicked out

I came in to work yesterday morning feeling oh so shitty. I don’t know that it was head-cold or sick shitty but it was shitty nonetheless. My stomach was nervous and jumpy and i had JUST woken up and ran in so I felt like my head was still on a pillow, iykwim..

So I got kicked out and sent home for looking like crap and sounding like crap. Not to mention grossing everybody out with my caughing and nose blowing. I felt bad for subjecting people to that more. LOL! So I went home and immediatly took a hot shower. OMG THAT FELT SOOO GOOOOOODDDDDD.. (Mental note, next time i wake up feeling like that, take the hot shower before coming in to work no matter how late i’m running.)

I felt a lot better but of course I had to work cuz i couldn’t put off what I had to get done. Took me till fucking 2pm. I did run out for an hour but stil… and i did do a lot of hacking and nose blowing through it so i’m sure the folks back at work were happy i was gone. LOL!

But anyways, now going off to a tangent.
Are men really that clueless when it comes to women’s needs? I mean, do they REALLY expect to get some ass when the night before they totally ignored you and blew off your request to come home or do something just as simple? If uou don’t give emotional attention, you don’t get physical attention. That’s the way it works! I certainly don’t feel like being touched when I feel emotionally neglected.

… so there it is…

Happy but sad day too

Today is Jada’s first day of daycare. It was exciting getting stuff ready and she was in good spirits despite having gotten her up so early. I wasn’t going to go because I’m sick and didn’t want to spread my germs there but I just had to go with Dennis to take her. She walked right in without any fuss, while another little boy there was very cautious and shy and wouldn’t walk through the door. She just blazed right by him and into the door immediatly playing with toys and interacting with the kids and the adults. LOL! The lady who openned the classroom door said something like “yeah, she’ll have no problems”.

But then I get home to a quiet, calm house and I just don’t feel right. I miss her so much. I put on the teletubbies which was not the best of ideas. I just burst into tears with the openning song. I miss my baby!! I think i’ll be picking her up at around 3 today.

I sure hope she doesn’t catch my cold though. The last 2 days for me have been really shitty. I thought it was a headcold, but it was more than that at night. i think. But thankfully it’s been going quickly. I don’t feel so miserable today anymore but my cough is just gross to listen to. my lungs are full of nastiness and I think I’ll be that way for another week. This stage of a cold always takes forever to clear up for me.

Allergist appt. yesterday

I decided to go see an allergist really just outta curiosity. I wanted to find out if I’m allergic to any foods. The nurse practitioner (who, by the way, looked like an infant) asked a bunch of questions one of which is .. are you allergic to any thing that you know of?

I said “sure, bananas that aren’t completely ripe and walnuts” (they basically make my lips swell, throat itch and inside of mouth raw and sore) At the end of the medical interrogation, she gave me a prescription to the epi-pen and said that you just never know with nuts, you can have a mild reaction one day, and die from it the next. LOL! I thought it was a little shocking but I think i’m going to fill it anyway.

Now I’m too afraid to have ANY nuts after all that she said.

I have a friend who could literally die from it so I called him up and asked if he had one. He doesn’t. that was shocking. Next time I see him, I’m going to give him an epi-pen if he hasn’t gotten one by then. Is he nutts!?!? (well, if he were, he’d be dead) hahahahahahhaaaaa…. ahemm..

crrrrrrap!

Ever feel like you can’t decide what to eat? You know you need something cuz you don’t exactly feel satisfied but you can’t fucking figure out what it is? And then when you think you’ve figured it out and you have the thing you thought you wanted in front of you, you then realize that it wasn’t exactly what you need at all and then you don’t want it? PISSES me off!!

GODDAMMIT I’m going to drink OJ all day if I have to.