One of the things they never tell you about before you have a kid is how GUILTY you feel for not going that extra mile and for not being the PERFECT parent… for cutting corners and for being selfish too.
I didn’t pack J’s lunch today so I ordered a lunch with the daycare (turkey sammich with chips and fruit.) better than I would do for a lunch anyway but i still felt bad for it. she’d probably just gutt the sandwich and leave all the bread behind but still.. i had mother’s remorse all day long. 
And I was worried so I went over there just now to peek in on her. She was OK i guess. It was nap time so she was on her mat, on her back, thumb in mouth but twirling herself clockwise on the mat. she just can’t stay still anywhere. I was still happy and impressed she was on that mat and sucking her thumb. (she only does the thumb when it’s sleep time.
siiiiigh
I dunno what it is but i miss her. i ffeel like i abandoned her today. LOL! wtf?
Boy are you not kidding. Every little thing made me feel like a horrible mother. Sometimes still does, though they are bigger now and I have more practice.
Probably the worst was Duncan’s sunburn. He was only two weeks old, and we hadn’t been in the sun for long, but the poor baby looked like a tomato and I know he was miserable. I felt like I should go straight to hell right on the spot.
Reply to springdewLOL! oh boy.. poor baby!
today was no better, i forgot to bring her bottle with water and had to run back for it. I wonder if those daycare ladies thing about me.
Reply to Tania (digsite)It sounds like you’ve got seperation anxiety my dear:)
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