With as much guilt as I’ve already been carrying around for not being the model mother, the last thing I needed today was to get a phone call from my grandmother and listen to her tell me that I abuse my older daughter.
This woman is fucking insane!!Where’d she get that notion, you ask? It doesn’t take much, but it all started two weeks when we were over at her house. My oldest was jumping on her bed and wouldn’t stop despite being told several times by both myself and my husband and her to stop. She was afraid she’d fall off. After about the 4th time we asked her to get down, we took her off the bed physically, stood her on the floor, and told her not to do it again. It looked like she got the message at first but 30 seconds later she was right back up there doing it again. We took her off the bed again and then sat her down on my aunt’s couch for a 3 minute time-out.
Continue reading ‘Quick! Cuff me while you still can!’
…what a disease.
It’s like some addiction where even when you know it’s not good for you, all you keep doing is putting it off and putting it off. I don’t think I was always this way. Not even in college. I remember being happy and doing my laundry every week.
I did put things off like school work but I don’t think that stuff really mattered to me much anyway. Sure I look back on those days and wish that I had been more dedicated to school and had studied harder, but I think everybody looks back on their life and wished they had tried harder and used their time better. But at least back then I feel I was a happier person. I had friends. I had fun. And more importantly, I had ambition and was hopeful for what the future could bring.
Continue reading ‘Procrastination’
I hate days like this when it seems like everything I try to accomplish becomes far more difficult than it should be.  I think in my entire day I’ve accomplished one (1) single thing and that was to reboot a test server.
How frustrating!!
Now it’s lunch time and I feel like the world will see the heaviness in my face if I go out to the atrium to nuke my lean cuisine.  BTW, did I mention how tired I’m getting of these little frozen lunches?!
Today is not a good day for me.
The source of most of my frustration today:
Received disconnect from wha.tab.itc.h!!: 2: Too many authentication failures for myuserid
I haven’t posted in over a week now because I’ve been working on this blog’s theme nonstop. I decided to switch themes last week and have been modifying it to look like my last theme. Supposedly the new theme is far better than the old one.
Except for some minor adjustments (which will probably still take me hours anyway), it’s looking the way I want it to. Next I get to work on the behind-the-scenes stuff which includes alinks, tags, categories, then importing, tagging and recategorizing 4 years worth of posts. That won’t be fun.
Meanwhile, I’m still on a search for a new family domain name. Well… truthfully it will be the first family domain name. The one I’m currently using is really not suitable for a family or kids. Not to mention I’m tired of the looks I get when I tell people where they can see updated photos of my kids. I registered it long before I even thought about marriage or babies.
One of the reasons I don’t like having to chime in on company conference calls is I’m afraid that things just won’t come out of my mouth the way I intended. I feel I am too crass sometimes for my own good. And it’s not that I want to be, I just lack the skill to be diplomatic under pressure.
Just an hour ago during a conference call with a german company we do business with, there was a misunderstanding about when a product was going to launch. We said “..but we thought this was going to start today, like now…” and they responded with “.. but we were waiting on word from you to proceed and we didn’t get that word so now we have to wait until monday…”.
Our project manager did her version of putting her foot down and said in an take-charge tone “no monday is already too late, I can’t go back to my boss and tell him this is delayed for another week. we’ll have to go tomorrow..”. This is where it gets good. The german guy put his foot down and said “this was supposed to launch back in april and we’ve been plagued with one delay after another.. six months now.. I don’t want to discuss with you, the next 4 days.. “. I had to refrain from bursting out in laughter on the phone.
In me-speak this would have sounded more like “..we’ve already delayed this for a whole 6 months, bitch, and you want to throw a fit over 4 days?! don’t even…”
Current Mood:
Amused
My posts have been so negative lately. I guess I’ve been a rather angry person of late. note to self: be happy! be happy! be happy!
Pissed Off
Contemplative
Frustrated
Anxious, 
Full
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