I haven’t talked about my thoughts on my weight here because everytime I’m open about my efforts to lose a few, I fail. I have blamed it on feeling like I’m expected to lose it, and I don’t work well under that kind of pressure. With my husband particularly, I really rather he not say anything at all to me about it unless I specifically bring it up or ask him a question like “do you think I’m fat?” which I feel he never answers honestly. At 184lbs, I can’t not be considered fat. I’ve got rolls and a belly overhang for christ sake.
I don’t want him to know when I’m trying to lose a few because I don’t want to be asked “how it’s going?” or “should you really be eating that?”. Those comments/questions are just as sabatoging to me as eating a rack of ribs. Just as unwelcome are comments like “We can go to Ruby Tuesdays because they have the salad bar.” That just brings my blissful day to a screetching halt because I really need nobody to remind me in any way about my weight, what I eat, what I don’t eat. It’s on me 24/7, trust me, I don’t need the reminders.


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