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I saw this over at JustTug and thought it would be fun to try to list these about myself. I just didn’t realize how long it would take me. Believe it or not, this took me about a week, on and off, to complete.

1. When I was a kid I would try to get yes/no (a or b, this or that) type answers from god about what was in store for me in the far off future by asking him to control certain events in the very immediate future. If things happened one way then the answer was ‘a’, if not then ‘b’. At some point in my early teens, this behaviour became so obsessive that I decided to put a stop to it forever. To this day, these thoughts still creep into my mind every once in a while, but I have stuck with my decision and never played into those thoughts again. Funny how I can keep an old promise to myself but incapable of making a new one. ..at least not yet. OK, I won’t ramble on for the rest of them. I promise. ;)
2. I routinely play out horrible tragedies in my head. What if’s and how I might cope with them.
3. It takes a lot of effort for me to return a phone call. Just because I’m lazy that way.
4. I lost my virginity at 25 even though I was never trying to “save myself” for anybody.
5. I’m constantly thinking about death.
6. I’m very afraid of cockroaches. Almost phobic.
7. It usually takes me a very long time to get used to a new person enough to be myself around them and have a stress free conversation. I’ve gotten better with this since having my kids.
8. I identify more with men then with women and used to feel physically uncomfortable while having to hold conversation with a woman. Thankfully, I’ve learned to deal with it far better in my 30’s but I still feel the anxiety startup almost every time.
9. I love to watch Irish Clog Dancing and Bollywood music videos.

My god I sound so negative, phobic, neurotic.. I tried hard to come up with funny wierdnesses but I guess I don’t have many of those (except for the clog dancing).