Digsite

I have a very good friend who I met in ’98 at my first “real” job out of college. We became so close our coworkers thought we were dating. He’s a great listener and always gave great advice. I enjoyed his company to no end. And I’d like to think he enjoyed my company just as much.

Well, we sortof lost contact after my second baby was born and we had gone a good 6 months without even talking on the phone. I had thought about him a lot lately and wondered why he hadn’t called me either. I finally called him today and we chatted a little bit. We got caught up but the conversation felt a little dry. I guess when you go that long without talking to someone, you lose grasp of the things that made the relationship special. So the big news of the day is he’s getting married.

I liked his girlfriend up until he told me that she had accused him of being interested in me and “cupping my breast” during my kid’s birthday party. WTF was that?! We had never had that kind of relationship. What did she think of me as a person if she thought I’d be capable letting someone do that to me?! I dunno. She must have thought I was a whore?! After that, I couldn’t be myself when she was around anymore. Things got awkward for me. So I secretly hoped that they’d break up.

I always liked her otherwise. In fact, I wish he had never told me of her accusations. I would have been much happier not knowing it.

But anyway, I came away from the call today feeling depressed. I miss my friend so much and I miss our friendship. And I think now that he’ll be getting married, I won’t be able to have it how it was because I feel too uneasy when they come over to be myself. Now if I want to rekindle our friendship, I need to put aside my feelings about her and be friends with her as well. And putting aside my feelings about someone has never come easy. But I’m gonna have to because I miss my friend so much. Man, this is probably the first time ever I’ve valued any friendship as much as this.

Goddam, I think myspace is a waste of cyberspace. OK ok so many like it…. Many also have poor taste.

Recently a cousin of mine decided to start a family group on myspace and suprisingly all kinds of family members have come out of the myspace woodwork to join up to this group.  I had a myspace account I openned eons ago just so I could better poke around myspace but I knew after about the second minute that it was not for me.

What is UP with the damned trashy pages anyway? I’m not saying that because I think they’re “immoral”, but really what is UP with the fucken trashy pages? Why the need for slutty photos, flashing text and wild backgrounds?! The entire concept of less-is-better is completely lost to these people. Every time I visit the fucken site I come away with a headache. Man, someone needs to start their own, more down to earth, version of myspace so us myspace-haters can join up.

I just spent a good hour uploading family photos of my own so my cousins on there can have a chance to see a glimpse of my family. In good time, my dislike for myspace is going to develop into a full blown allergy.

Saturday Morning

I openned my eyes on this saturday morning
even before my alarm clock’s first warning.
I pulled my sheets up but I’m still feeling clammy
It’s COLD here today, even here near Miami

Temps in the 40′s. Brrr! My body fidgets
Thank god we don’t dip down below double digits
It’s a work day for me. Saturdays always are.
And it’s the day I reserve for my fave coffee bar

So I get up and get ready. I cannot be late
Need time to get coffee, my shift starts at eight.
Then one macchiatto and egg sandwich later
I arrive here at work and play guess the dictator

So while I play mommy to one thousand servers,
I surf many sites as do the network observers.
The weekend is usually slow like today
especially nice on a day cold and grey

I’ve worked here so long it feels cozy like home
real nice with my sweater on and latte with foam
I love what I do so it’s easy conforming
to getting up early.. each saturday morning.

- Tania (digsite)

It’s scenes like this that sum it all up for me.

Tuvok is in his quarters playing Kal-toh. Ensign Kim ‘knocks’ on Tuvok’s door.

Tuvok: “Mr Kim, can I help you?”

Kim: “Uh, that’s kal-toh, isn’t it? Vulcan chess?”

Tuvok: “Kal-toh is to chess, as chess is to tic-tac-toe.”

Kim: “I should’ve known, Uh…”

Tuvok: “What is on your mind, Ensign?”

Kim: “Tuvok, I need your help. I want to eliminate emotions, like Vulcans do.”

Tuvok: “Mr Kim, it is a lifelong process.”

Kim: “I realise that, and I also know that Vulcans use certain techniques.”

Tuvok: “The t’an s’at, the intellectual deconstruction of emotional patterns.”

Kim: “I’m willing to learn.”

Tuvok: “May I ask why?”

Kim: “I have feelings I don’t want to have.”

Tuvok: “That would seem to be self-evident.”

Kim: “I’m in love and I don’t want to be.”

Tuvok: “I see, and who is the object of your affections?”

Kim: “Marayna.”

Tuvok: “I’m not aware of anyone on the ship with that name.”

Kim: “She’s not a member of the crew. She’s a character on a holodeck.”

Tuvok: “You’re in love with a computer subroutine?”

Hilarious.

..as apposed to raving mad? har har Anyway… For the last 48 hours I have been watching video clips nonstop. I do spend a lot LOT of time online. Like every waking hour. But I rarely surf pointless sites that have video and click on play 8 dozen times in one sitting. It’s a wonder my kids got fed.

Well two days ago someone intro’d me to a free amateur porn site. Let’s just say I’ve watched enough balls flopping, butt cheek flapping, tit swinging to last me half a year.

Yesterday started out on liveleak.com watching clips of soldiers in iraq getting blown to bits and I soon went from there to youtube and watched a few clips of some comedian I can’t find now who makes up songs on the fly and plays a guitar. Pretty freakin funny dude.

Then towards the end of my shift (yes, i surfed youtube at work all day yesterday – it was slow) I found this chick who is an amazing singer. She video tapes herself singing to caraoke cd’s and the posts them on youtube.

Here’s one of my favorites from what I’ve watched so far.
Mambo Italiano – Redux

Why didn’t a certain someone let me know that SP1 was still in beta and a good 6 months away from it’s final release?!

I installed Vista last week and I gotta say it’s real purty. very pretty and I like it … alot. But I also enjoyed my ability to sync my ipaq to my laptop over bluetooth. I can still sync with Vista using the cradle but that’s just a major pain in my arse. Who wants to have to pull out the damned usb cradle EVERY DAY. It’s a laptop, a mobile device, and the less wires the better.

I’m still trying but I’m damned near ready to throw in the towel on this one and just accept the fact that I’ll have to use the friggin cradle until SP1 comes out. This is assuming that SP1 will fix the problem, of course. At least it seems that the only people who have posted on forums saying that they’ve been able to sync over bluetooth are MS partners testing out beta software.

I’ve downloaded and installed Windows Mobile Device Center at least 5 times. Uninstall / Install / Uninstall / Install. I’m fed up with it. A nice event log would have been nice!! If at least to say “you tried, we failed”. I’ve even been taking my laptop into work with me so I can slave over this little problem ALL my waking hours. It was also nice to see that vista can’t handle flashing the rom on my ipaq. OK, I should have known better. But I ended up completely obliterating all data on that damned thing. And how long did it take me to install all that shit on there? Well here we go again…