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It’s been a while. Things have been going swimingly for me and when this happens, I do my best not to think about certain things in my life because, like I told my shrink last week, I’m afraid it will bring me down and put me right back to where I was 3 months ago mentally.

I’m enjoying myself right now …with work. Strange that I won’t take up a recreational activity to clear my mind …of work. Instead I’ve found intense pleasure, of all things ..with work.

But I decided to suck it up and face a couple things that might threaten to bring me down.. One of which involves my sister and why I think she hasn’t called me in a long long time. It wasn’t because of her. It was because of her mother. (we’re half sisters although I refuse to ever call her that).

To change the subject ( because I’m a master at that whenever I get close to the previous subject ) I have been taken off one of my meds last week. My doc said I should take antihistemine in it’s place to help with sleep. I haven’t. This is why I’ve been up late, and get up early. I’m trying to see if my body will adjust it’s own sleep pattern without having to take drugs. I dont’ want to become dependent on sleep aids even if my anti-depressants are the cause for my sleeplessness. I’ll give this a shot first.

I had a dream tonight. I probably won’t write this down because I rather try to understand what it means than to take attention away to put it on grammar and punctuation. It had to do with my first “computer” job, the people I worked with there, systems administration, being accepted, and my sister and her friends, and my standing up for myself.

All of that rolled into one dream. yikes! but my hubby was in it, providing me support thru it all, although I think in my dream he was still a boyfriend.

And now I’m horny as FUCK!