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I think after the way my day has been going, I deserve a bad day post.

My day, in the sense of events in my surroundings, has been OK. But my frame of mind and emotional status is not so good. I feel lonely, dejected, unimportant, overlooked, or looked over.

Of course on days like this I have to ask myself. Am I really dejected, unimportant, etc? Or is it just my mind making it seem this way? Is it “all in my head” so to speak. I dont’ know and I’m trying not to spend too much time thinking about it, really. But writing it out tends to clear my head sometimes so here I am.

I just called the spa D got me a gift certificate for last year. Switched my deep muscle massage for an 85 minute facial. :D The thought of having hands all over my lumpy, fungus ridden body did not sit right. So facial it is. And I feel much better and I can’t wait. I’ve only had 2 facials in my life, and they were always sooo nice. They always ended too early but an 85 minue facial … oooh la la..

If I like it enough I may make going there a more common event. Even tho they are expensive.

So that call made me feel better. But I’m still sitting here at work, alone, while everyone else went out to lunch. That’s the part that is making me feel dejected. It usually doesn’t matter to me, but not today. I missed my happy pill yesterday. Maybe that’s why it’s bothering me today. I don’t know.

But calling the spa and the anticipation for the facial has given me a very calming feeling. I need it.