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I’ve been doing a shit load of reading concerning antidepressants and their effect on certain things and I have decided that I want to get off of them. Maybe not right now, but I don’t want to be on them forever. I would like to see myself get off of them by the middle of next year.

I feel as though certain things in my life have improved since I started taking them. But they also have not helped to change certain habits that make my life less than enjoyable sometimes. No pill can fix those things. And being dependant on a medication can’t be a good thing. Sure the pills helped me to an extent, but I don’t think they fixed the root of my problems with depression. Fixing that is going to take more effort than popping some pills every morning.

I have been a bit troubled by the recent increase in dosage. And one of her recent comments about how she doesn’t want to see me get so depressed that she’d have to commit me to a hospital really makes me feel like my arm is being twisted. Even tho she may not have meant it that way, I still felt my freedom slip a bit. The only time I was really THAT bad, was when I first got started on anti-d’s that didn’t agree with me in the first place.

Now I KNOW that my head doctor isn’t going to agree with me. She would not be happy if I just up and quit the meds on my own either. But if she won’t agree to help me get off them, then I might just have to get off them myself, my own way.