The stress level is high.
The meeting with J’s teacher revealed nothing we hadn’t heard before over the past 2 years. At the daycare they said she “lives in her own world” and “won’t listen”. At PreK she got in trouble for pushing some kid down the slide and said she “is too easily distracted” and “can’t concentrate”. Today we were told more of the same. That she’s easily distracted, can’t sit still, can’t focus on one thing long enough and spends most of her time alone. And if that wasn’t bad enough, she’s hitting random kids over the head with her lunch box.
And then as if to drive in the point she gives me the hardest time at dinner ever. What should have taken 20 minutes to eat took 45. And in the end I gave up and threw the food in the sink.
She fidgets, does everything except for what i’m telling her which sounds like this “pick up the fork. pick up the fork. put food in your mouth. chew. chew! CHEW! HELOOOOO!.. YES IT’S ME TALKING HERE. CHEW!!!!”
She plays with the phone cable, the computer mouse, the paper. Moves her hands and fingers ALLL OVER THE TABLE. turns around. stares into space. fidgets. It’s fucking impossibly annoying and I can’t take it.
Autism had been mentioned years ago when she couldn’t talk. Then ADHD, Hyperactivity, etc… Whatever it is this girl has a problem and if we can’t figure out how to deal with it, I’m going to shoot myself in the head. Then I’m going to stab myself, then when I’m good and dead, I’m going come back and bash my skull in with a baseball bat.
Frustrated
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