Fucking day has started out REAL nice. It’s days like this I wished I would just have gone to work and spared myself the fucking frustration. D made me get up to help get J ready for school despite the fact I’m rotting in bed with my fucking sinuses making my head feel like an over inflated balloon. But that’s ok, I will do it. I get up and feel like a blithering idiot when I can’t seem to figure otu what to do first. Blow my nose, or go pee, or put on some shoes or what.. i can’t walk upright because my back hurts. Then my nose starts to drip but I walk out to the kitchen and first thing I have to do is mop up some dog pee even tho I have told D a million times that the #1 thing to do when you get up or come home or WHATEVER is to let the dogs out because that’s the FIRST thing they do. SHIT and PEE. But that’s ok I will do it. Next I stumble around like some lame idiot because my feet hurt trying to find shoes to put on my feet. I find some new flip flops I’ve never worn and then try to brush J’s hair. Knowing the cry baby she can be sometimes I grab the top of her hair in a bunch and procede to untangle the bottom and I *KNOW* it’s not pulling her scalp and she starts to cry and yell anyway. That just put me over the top. But I kept my mouth shut because I know if I open it it would just be to yell at her and that just makes things worse. Then D has to start yeling at me that it must be hurting and goddam it if it wouldn’t have been better to lock myself in the bathroom this morning or just put on my jeans and sneak off to work contagious as I must be. Fucking A, this day couldn’t have started any worse.
But just as one daughter specializes in frustrating me, the other has a knack of making me smile.
After J and D leave I sat down feeling like crap and I start to take off M’s pajama pants and the first thing out of her mouth is “uh oh”. then I take off her shirt and she said “I’m Nekkit”. Then I put on her dress bottom ‘bloomer’ things and then her socks and she says “awesome” because she likes the socks. First time I’ve heard her say that. Yesterday I could have sworn she said “that sucks” but I’m not sure.
I really hope today doesn’t turn into a shit day for me. It’s bad enough my head feels like a fucking beach ball. All I know is I’m dragging my sick ass to work tomorrow no matter what. People are going to get sick anyway.
So there’s been a bug going around the dungeon and I caught it. I started getting sick yesterday and wasn’t sure at first if I was really getting sick or if I had just washed my hair for too long in the morning because that’s when the sneezing started. But 200 tissues and 20 hours of sleep later I think I can officially call it sick. It’s not letting up …yet.
Despite feeling like crap I dragged my ass to the foot doctor this morning because my feet are also still ’sick’. The monster dose of diflucan from the previous visit didn’t put a dent in it so I was hoping to hear that the cultures had grown into something tangible. But sadly there was no fungal growth from the cultures. I’m still convinced it’s a fungus and that it’s Tinea. But it must be some mutated alien form because NOTHING is helping.
My doc said he was out of ideas and suggested I go see an allergist / infectious disease specialist. I guess my gaping jaw and bulging eyes caused him to take pity on me because he decided to try one more thing. It’s a medication that is for treating candidiasis. I told him I will try anything, but I didn’t think I had candidiasis because “don’t people with that have white globs of things in their mouths of throats?” So he took a look in my mouth. And the very funny man said “well you don’t have it …. yet” (that was sarcasm) Sigh..
So between my hopeless feet and my swollen, drippy head, I haven’t felt like working out this weekend. The cleaning ladies came and kicked up a bunch of dust. :( My sinuses are just unhappy little tubes.
So I woke up feeling way better so I decided to go out to the pharmacy to get some foot care products like razor blades and acid. But this outing turned into a hunt for new washer and dryer. (badly needed now that we have vomit soaked towels and rhea soaked jammies and bed sheets) Yeah, it’s real fun here at chez beauchea ;) . So anyway, I overestimated how well I was doing because walking in public while dizzy with a crampy stomach was just a tad scary. Thankfully I closed the deal on a new dryer/washer after the only the second store. Could have been cheaper at Sears but I think I had enough.
I’m not so sure I can get back to work tomorrow.. Right now my stomach is crampy and I’m cold. My head hurts. Yadda… Sigh.
And I brought back more than souvenirs. It’s 3pm and this is the first time I’ve been able to sit up long enough to write something in here (or watch TV). Last night was a tag team race between my ass an my stomach to see which one could expel the most “waste”. At one point I had to get up from the can to turn around and give my stomach a turn. I didn’t do it soon enough. I was afraid my ass would decorate the walls. But my stomach did that instead. I still haven’t gotten enough energy to clean it up. Dennis won’t touch it of course.
Then I was so dehydrated all I could think of was water. My tongue was sticking to the roof of my mouth but I couldn’t hold down the water either. I was able to drink about 6 glasses of water little by little between naps all day today. But the water is still only getting absorbed cuz only my ass has been getting points in the waste race.
Sigh… I have a fever. I think I got this from Maya because she had been refusing to eat anything the last 3 days and spitting up a lot. Something she hadn’t done since she was less than a year old. I’m feeling cold, clammy, achy, dizzy, and sleepy. My fever is at 101 F. It must have been around 103 earlier at least because I’m not feeling as cold as I was.
But besides all this, our vacation was fun. We saw a lot, did a lot, the kids had fun. We got a room upgrade to a one bedroom and it had a washer and dryer, full kitchen, big ass tub which me and the kids got in the first hour there. The trip also had it’s high stress moments. Sortof expected when you travel with two little kids. But it was so interesting to see Jada’s outgoing personality in full gear. She introduced herself to everybody. I mean EVERYBODY. Total strangers at the park, the bus drivers, our hotel neighbors, the cleaning crews, Mickey, Minnie, Donald, and Stitch too. LOL! She had an awesome time.
Sigh, I’m beginning to feel like ass again. Time for another nap.
it’s been a week since I last posted.. same time Maya first got sick. Her cold is much better but she still has sinus problems from time to time so I’ve got to keep putting saline drops in her nose and just yesterday we got a prescription that reeeally helps a lot with sinus congestion. … it also seems to knock her senseless which is a very nice little side effect! heeheehee ;)
My own cold has traveled on to my lungs… joy. Basically everybody in the house has had this cold and is in different stages of it. I’m in the constant runny nose / non-productive noisy chest cough stage. I absolutely hate this part of it.
well aside from this, “things” are OK i guess. We’ll be having in law visitors next weekend and my sister may also be coming down at some point. My parents are still in town so I’ll be driving down again either tomorrow or friday (probably the latter). I go back to work in about another month I think the date is first week of July? I gotta check that.
Going back has its pros and cons for me. I think dennis will be able to handle both girls but things like Jada’s speech therapy may have to come to a screeching halt because I don’t see him juggling both girls for a 30 minute session. Her last session is supposed to be end of July anyways. I guess as long as one of her session is held on mondays we can at least do it halfway.
but ANYway.. I will be making a trip to work with the baby soon. Next week. either tuesday or thursday before lunch sometime… I feel bad that I haven’t dropped by work yet. Maya had her first shots yesterday. Hepatitis.. C i believe.
well… she’s awake and wheezing again .. that was a short nap!
Yep, you read right. I’m sitting here on the couch in my underwear (I can’t stand to be dressed at home, TOO HOT) and wedged in my skivvies is a mountain of paper. LOL! maybe i should just wear some depends or something. I hope this couch doesn’t get ruined. Goddam, I have head cold #5. I’ve really lost count actually.. so i dunno of it’s #5 or 6. and I’m caughing up a storm, sneezing a lot too. and sometimes I just get tired of going to the can so I hold it a while. But that can get dangerous… hence the mountain of paper.
Anyways……
I’ve been staying up till 1 a lot. sometimes 2. I can’t help it. I fell asleep on the couch for almost 2 hours this evening waking up every 30 minutes to having the remote shoved in my face and Jada saying “Hi-5?” I hate just putting tv on for her just to keep her out of trouble but I just HAD to sleep because I was feeling sooo so bad. I’ve been really tired during the day this week. today I managed to stay awake the whole day at work, but many times I was fixing stuff while my eyes were glazing over and drifting. I’m lucky I didn’t break anything. I guess being sick is the cause. well maybe pregnancy too but I didn’t feel so sleepy or tired this entire pregnancy like I did with J. thank gawd!! so why now? it’s got to be the head cold. or both, who the hell knows.
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